Days without Mickey

The last three days have been somewhat silent. Is this the silence before the storm or is it a tactic of the nature to indicate how important children are to us.

We were in Udupi over the Good Friday weekend and the following Monday and Tuesday. Mom was asking us to leave Mickey in Mang with my parents for the rest of the week. Amma, Appa and Ramya were coming to Bang on Saturday morning. So it was just a case of 3 days and 4 nights. It would also save us Rs 3500, the fees to be paid to the Day Care. It was a good break for all of us. Shri agreed to this with a lot of reluctance.

On Tuesday (April 6th), Shri and I started back to Bangalore as planned after leaving Mickey behind.  I was glad that I could sleep early in the bus and be fresh to go to office the next day. It was funny to see Shri in the bus. He was sitting and silent all the while. He denied that he was missing Mickey first by saying he wasn't sleepy, he was just tired, etc. He accepted that he missed Mickey only when I openly asked if he was missing her. Shri and I were completely silent in the auto on our way back home.

The next day the scene was completely different the next day. In the evening, Shri went off with his boss Rakhee for dinner, I was left alone. I gymmed, read all the shlokas even then the clock wouldn't move. I went to bed as early as 10 PM. I didn't cook for the next three days. Whenever I started from office, I would start missing her. I realized that I am relaxed only if she sleeps with me. 

We both started counting days for Mickey to reach Bangalore. At the bottom of all this, Shri and I realized that we can't live without Mickey.

The other side of the story:

When I left her in Mangalore, I was really scared and tensed. I had asked my mom to come to Bang the very next day she asks for even one of us. But in reality was that she didn't even miss us.  Mickey asked for her Appa  twice and Amma only once at the end of the 3rd day. She happily lived with my parents. She wanted my dad to do everything that Shri does. I don't know if it is a fortunate thing or unfortunate thing that she can live without any of her parents around.

Our fear 'can she live without her parents?' has changed to a feeling of insecurity 'if she can live without her parents?'. Have we become redundant? This is really scary.