I am a sleep deprived mom. Correction, I am sleep deprived working mom. On a normal day, I doze off in the cab on my way to work. Commute is a good time to catch up on some sleep. Though its never enough, it still a relief and an energizer. In addition, Uber has good AC cars and that helps. The slow moving traffic in Bangalore makes the journey a little longer but how am I to know! :P
Something strange happened today on my way to work. As usual, last night was a sleepless night. I must have dozed off. I woke up to non stop loud honking by many vehicles. With very difficulty I opened my eyes cursing the guys who were honking behind, wondering what had gone wrong. I could see the empty road with no vehicles for 200 mts ahead of me. I was looking for the driver only to realize, I hadn’t found an uber in the morning and I was behind the wheels driving. A terror ran through me. I was wide awake in a jiffy and started moving. I was wide awake for the rest of the journey relieved only after I reached my workplace.
Later started thinking that zillion things could have happened. What if I had met with an accident or what if I had banged into an innocent life? What if??? On analyzing the situation further, I wondered, there must have been so many people cursing a lady driver who hadn’t moved despite the vehicles ahead moving and the road was empty. Also, wondering what could have been the first thoughts in those minds in the cars behind me.. “ No wonder this happened. It’s a lady driver.”, “Oh a lady driver! She wouldn’t know to drive and the vehicle would have abruptly stopped.”, “Then, may be, she was on the phone”, “Such a B**”, etc.
No one would ever understand the exhaustion of a mom unless it’s a mom going through the same phase. People can be judgmental! People can be critical! Driving in this condition was a bad choice. But on a day like this, if I made up my mind to come to work and work being high on caffeine, I know I am working for a better today and tomorrow.
Something strange happened today on my way to work. As usual, last night was a sleepless night. I must have dozed off. I woke up to non stop loud honking by many vehicles. With very difficulty I opened my eyes cursing the guys who were honking behind, wondering what had gone wrong. I could see the empty road with no vehicles for 200 mts ahead of me. I was looking for the driver only to realize, I hadn’t found an uber in the morning and I was behind the wheels driving. A terror ran through me. I was wide awake in a jiffy and started moving. I was wide awake for the rest of the journey relieved only after I reached my workplace.
Later started thinking that zillion things could have happened. What if I had met with an accident or what if I had banged into an innocent life? What if??? On analyzing the situation further, I wondered, there must have been so many people cursing a lady driver who hadn’t moved despite the vehicles ahead moving and the road was empty. Also, wondering what could have been the first thoughts in those minds in the cars behind me.. “ No wonder this happened. It’s a lady driver.”, “Oh a lady driver! She wouldn’t know to drive and the vehicle would have abruptly stopped.”, “Then, may be, she was on the phone”, “Such a B**”, etc.
No one would ever understand the exhaustion of a mom unless it’s a mom going through the same phase. People can be judgmental! People can be critical! Driving in this condition was a bad choice. But on a day like this, if I made up my mind to come to work and work being high on caffeine, I know I am working for a better today and tomorrow.
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